“ Her personality of calm wideness and
comprehending wisdom and tranquil benignity and inexhaustible compassion and
sovereign and surpassing majesty and all-ruling greatness. ”
Sri Aurobindo
begins his description of Maheshwari by calling her “Imperial Maheshwari” – she
is the Divine Ruler. When I first read about her, I imagined a remote figure.
She was beautiful, seated on a throne, and seemed far above my own world. In
one sense, my first instinct was correct: she governs us – our inner being and
its aspirations and, in true spirit of governance, she appears removed from the
immediacy of our struggles. Yet, because she is also the embodiment of
“inexhaustible compassion,” her throne, her seat of governance, is never
inaccessible to us. Sri Aurobindo says “even
her rejections are only a postponement; even her punishments are a grace.”
How beautiful – I feel emboldened when I read that. She does not say “no” only
“not yet.”
We see a measure
of this compassion in ‘Savitri’,
Out of her hushed eternal spaces leaned
The great and boundless Goddess feigned to yield
The sunlit sweetness of her secrecies.
Book 2
Canto XI
When we seek to
understand All-Wisdom, she “feigns to yield” her secret – much as when a child
grabs her mother’s skirt and thinks that her grip is holding her mother in
place. Instead, it is the mother’s love for the child which is allowing the
child to believe that she can control her mother by gripping her skirt. It is
the Mother’s love and Her compassion that permits my thought-bound experience
to become aware of Her. Sri Aurobindo says that Maheshwari is seated “above the
thinking mind.” I always imagined this seat as far away because so much of my
day is spent in the thinking mind. What I value most in life is the excitement
when encountering a new idea, the joy of going beyond a thorny perspective, and
the satisfaction of recognizing a wider truth. All these seem to me entirely
the right things to do if I am to grow. Yet, all of these activities happen
within the thinking mind. All these activities are in the realm of knowledge,
not wisdom. In the space above the thinking mind lies a field of awareness – of
feeling as well as thinking. When I think of the word “Love” in that space, it
is both an embodied concept (those I love) and a movement within me (what I
feel). “Love” in this space is also an access to something greater than my
physical, mental or emotional ability. I sense its largeness even if I cannot
articulate it or enter the experience of it. This awareness of something
greater – that is the beginnings of my understanding of Maheshwari’s presence.
The nearest example is of my parents who are presently far from me
geographically and yet, when I am speaking to them on the phone, or thinking of
them, they are not far at all. I experience both their nearness and their
physical distance at the same time. My awareness of the Divine Mother is much
the same: when I am trying to articulate the experience, words fail and she
seems remote; yet, when I move beyond merely articulating what I know into
experiencing her, she is very near.
This distinction
between knowledge and wisdom is central to my understanding of the Mother as Maheshwari.
To know her, they say, is to love her. How beautifully we glide from the mental
to emotional. Just so, if we know her within, we become aware of her and it is
in this awareness that we begin our journey in the paths of wisdom. Sri
Aurobindo describes how Maheshwari grants us access “to the treasure-house of
miraculous knowledge.” The OED defines a miracle as “a surprising and welcome
event that is not explicable by natural or scientific laws” and knowledge as
“the theoretical or practical understanding of a subject.” These two elements
(miracle and knowledge) in my mind have always been exclusive – if you
understand something, how does it retain its wonder, how does it remain
inexplicable? So when Sri Aurobindo tells us that Maheshwari gives access to
miraculous knowledge, he challenges my easy categories. This passage reinforces
something Professor Nadkarni once mentioned. He was quoting the Mother who
talked about how our perception of a miracle needs to alter. We need to see
even the ordinary as part of the miracle wrought by the Divine. Here is her
response:
“A miracle is nothing but a sudden descent, a
bursting forth of another consciousness and its powers — most often it is the
powers of the vital — into this plane of matter. There is a precipitation, upon
the material mechanism, of the mechanism of a higher plane. It is as though a
lightning flash tore through the cloud of our ordinary consciousness and poured
into it other forces, other movements and sequences. The result we call a
miracle, because we see a sudden alteration, an abrupt interference with the
natural laws of our own ordinary range, but the reason and order of it we do
not know or see, because the source of the miracle lies in another plane. Such
incursions of the worlds beyond into our world of matter are not very uncommon,
they are even a constant phenomenon, and if we have eyes and know how to
observe we can see miracles in abundance.”
– ‘Questions
and Answers (1929 – 31)’
“To see miracles
in abundance” is to be granted access to the treasure-house of miraculous
knowledge; to know with a deeper knowledge that will encompass our senses and
go beyond into an awareness of what lies beyond our perception. So what holds me back from this knowledge? My
own limited aspirations – distracting me from this treasure-house. I am like
the explorer who discovers the vast treasure rooms and gets distracted by
glories of the outer chambers instead of venturing to the heart where the greatest
treasure will be available. But it is the grace and sweetness of Maheshwari
that she ensures that despite distractions, we will all be granted this wisdom,
this access to Divine Truth.
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Ramalakshmi
Ramalakshmi Janamanchi has grown up in our Centre and was introduced to ‘Savitri’ by Professor Nadkarni and Mrs. Sonia Dyne. Now a mother of two, she lives in Cleveland, Ohio and is a member of our virtual community. We are glad to include another of her insightful articles in this issue of our Newsletter.
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